So, the year is coming to an end and I am looking back...

Here is what I see:

2 friendships ended! (Thank The Gods)

I have found better friends! (Thank you Jason, Travis, Tara, Laura, & a few others)

I still have my good friends! (Thank you Rachael, Amanda, Katrina, Kyndra, Alyssa, Deb, Tigger, Denise, Tim, and a few others)

I have gotten back in touch with old friends! (Thank you fb for Laura, Brandon, Chris, 30, Todd and others)

I have gotten closer to my kids! (Again, Thank The Gods)

I have Dallas living with me! (Thank You Mark)

I have spent another year with my amazing man! (Again, I Thank The Gods)

I have grown as a person, a mother, a lover, a friend and as a human! (Thank You Jarrod)

I have found what is important and what matters and let go of what isn't and doesn't! (Thank You Jarrod!)

I started my own business! (Thank you Loy!)

I helped start a charity to help the homeless! (Thank you Jarrod, Laurie and all who donated and will donate)

I have a family who loves me (Thank you Laurie, Mark, Jeannie, Memere, Pepere, Anthony, Dallas, Jarrod, Alex, Brad & Everyone else!)

I have found a new hope from inspiration beyond words! (Thank you Loy & Judy!)

I have a future that I can't wait to get started! (Thank Everyone In My Life!)

Now I am looking forward and here is what I see:

New Friends 

New Family

New Home

New Life

New Love

New Happiness

New Hope

And So many possibilities, I can't list them all!

For that I thank EVERYONE in my life!!!

A special thank you has to be said to specific people:

Jarrod:

You have taught me to love again, to care about myself again, to care about others again and to open my heart like I've never been hurt! I will never forgive you for that! LOL I am lucky to have you in my life and can't imagine a day without you! You know my past and you know how I have been hurt and what I have been through. You know my heart will never be perfectly whole again but you are mending parts of it that I can't believe are mend-able! I have become who I am because of you!

Laurie, Mark, Alex, Brad, Memere, Pepere & the rest of Jarrod's family:

You have all welcomed me into your homes, your hearts and your lives. I have never known a families love like I do now thanks to all of you! I can only hope and wish that I can somehow, someway show you how much you all mean to me and how fortunate I feel to have you all in my life. You have taken someone who didn't know what a families love could feel like, an unconditional love, and showed her that it is the most amazing thing in the world! 

Loy & Judy:

I don't even know where to begin! You have helped me begin a new life doing what I love! You have touched my heart with your strength and your will to be the wonderful people you are, no matter the odds or the obstacles! You have shown me that no matter what a person is faced with, they CAN make a difference! They CAN be amazing and they CAN affect everyone who is lucky enough to know them! I thank the Gods that I have gotten a chance to share part of your lives! I may have never known how strong the human spirit is if I had never met you two! For that reason, I vow to never give up! I will never stop trying, I will never let life beat me down and I will NEVER forget how much you two mean to me and everyone who knows you! I promise to live a life that will make you both proud to know you influenced!

To those I have lost and those who have lost:

Life DOES go on. No matter how much it hurts to know that person is gone, feel blessed that you had them for the time you did! Some people come in to your life to make a difference, even if only for a short time! I will never forget those I have lost and I know everyone who has lost someone will never forget them either! 

To EVERYONE:

DO NOT TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED! Live life to the fullest! Love everyone you can! Laugh as often as you can! And, never forget you matter! To someone, somewhere, you matter!!!

Amy J. Rodgers (Kitty)

Side note: If you were tagged but you don't see your name, please do not get offended! You matter or I wouldn't have tagged you in this! But my fingers are cramping and I can't type much more! LOL

Sorry...

I haven't been on here in awhile... Not many followers so I don't really care but... For those that click thru blogs, here's an update:

I am fed up with people bitching about our president! Stop for 10 minutes and read about how politics work! People say he hasn't kept his promises, he hasn't done the things he said he would, etc. It's not for lack of trying! Congress has him in a corner. They won't let him do the things he wants to do. When a new President is elected, everyone is excited and a few months later they start pointing fingers and placing blame. How about you point your fingers where they belong? At congress! I'm not Rep. or Dem. but with a republican cabinet they have a tendency to stop everything a democratic President tries to do. And with more republicans coming into office next year, it will continue to happen!
Another thing that annoys me... People who complain about who is in the offices and when asked if they voted, they say no! WTH? If you didn't vote, then you have NO RIGHT to complain about anything those people in office do! NO RIGHT to complain about who is in office! You want to bitch about it? VOTE!!!

I'll step down from my Kat 'Soap' Box now...

Ok, AMA's

Seriously? The BS that is known as The American Music Awards, is so just uggggghhhh! I have no idea what to say really... It's not really a politics type issue, it's a 'our country is run by its's teens' type issue... I mean giving the artist of THE YEAR award to Justin Bieber? Come on! And why even have anyone running against half of the artist's... The same people win over and over... The only interesting part of the whole night was Pink's cute pregnant belly and the NKOTBSB performance... The rest of the crap was just that, crap!!! How about someone over the age of 15 voting??? Come on America!!!

I'm wanting another tattoo!

I need to finish my right arm, which is apparently my xmas present, but now I want to start on my left arm... I've gotten to the point that they hurt more than they used too and I want to get them all finished... Problem is, I have like 15 more I want! Arrrrrgggg

So Screw It...

Here's my story...

I was abused, mentally and physically, by my mother until I was 15. I ran away a few times and one of those times, I was raped of my virginity. I was in an abusive relationship, tried to kill him. Was married for 8 years and with my ex-husband for 11. We had 2 wonderful kids, I don't know how they turned out so amazing. I left them for 2 years with my ex-husband, which I regret. I was addicted to drugs, an alcoholic and I have 4 mental disorders. Everytime I get on meds, they work for awhile then stop working. I don't own ANYTHING. My laptop, my camera and all it's accessories aren't even mine. I don't own a car, hell I can't even get a license. I don't own a house. I don't have anything to call my own. My oldest son prefers living with his father. My youngest is well behaved in public but pushes me as far as he can in private. He shows signs of some of my mental disorders. My whole family, other than my sons, are in TX. My business is failing. My relationship is suffering and I have tried EVERYTHING to change it all. I guess life just doesn't want to give me a break! There is so much more to my story but, as I am in tears now, I choose not to write anymore of it...

Kitty, Amy, Lisa, #4 & #5

House Hunting

SUCKS! Going again today to do so... Why is it that when the economy is 'so bad' rental rates are so damn high???

Been Sick...

Been sick so I haven't been feeling up to posting but... Today, I feel the need to urge anyone who reads this to consider something VERY important... Bone Marrow donation and Cord Blood donation! If you are pregnant or know someone who is: they throw your umbilical cord away! This simple donation of the cord could save someone's life! And Bone Marrow donation is not what it used to be! Do some research on it, most of the time you don't even have to donate your marrow, they have a new method that is no worse than donating plasma. And if you do have to donate marrow, it is a procedure that is simple and painless! READ ABOUT IT!!! You could save someone's life...

http://www.marrow.org/HELP/Donate_Cord_Blood_Share_Life/Cord_Blood_Is_Changing_Lives/index.html

http://www.marrow.org/JOIN/Myths_%26_Facts_about_Marrow_Don/index.html


Check it out! I signed up! A week or 2 of discomfort is worth saving someone's life... Right?

Are We Really This Blind?

This country has truly lost it's mind! Am I the only one who remembers that we have a constitution and a bill of rights? Try reading it sometime!

http://www.usconstitution.net/const.html

http://www.constitution.org/billofr_.htm

Read them! Our government is going against it's own f-ing laws!!!

Seriously... Read them, see if I'm right or not...

Found My Reason...

So, I've found my reason for this blog... More than just my thoughts... Human Rights!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Human-Rights/115885801809128?v=wall

Politics... HA!

Ok, so here goes my opinion... If it pisses you off, that's my right! Please by all means, go look it up!

The right to freedom of speech is recognized as a human right under Article 19 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and recognized in international human rights law in the International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights (ICCPR). The ICCPR recognizes the right to freedom of speech as "the right to hold opinions without interference. Everyone shall have the right to freedom of expression."^[1][2] Furthermore freedom of speech is recognized in European, inter-American and African regional human rights law.


Now, on to what I have to say...


Washington, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE re-read your constitution!


Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.


NO LAW RESPECTING AN ESTABLISHMENT OF RELIGION, OR PROHIBITING THE FREE EXERCISE THEREOF!


My religion does not recognize the Adam & Eve, not Adam & Steve BS! MY religion is based on love and believes that no matter the gender, race or creed, EVERYONE has the right to be married to the one they love! How can I trust or even agree with a country, a political establishment, a government who doesn't abide by it's own f-ing rules???


Seriously? You say and try to act as though you represent 'the people' but 'the people' includes ALL of us. You can't be biased and go by one religions creed and ignore the rest! When will Washington wake up? We have the RIGHT to love who we want, to speak of what we want, and to believe what we want... Why can't you abide by your own laws and amendments? Am I the only one who sees this as a breach of our rights???

All Hallow's Eve...

Been decorating for the party tomorrow for hours now... Tired... Too tired to write anything more... Nite!

Guitar Rock...

So, Im sitting here listening to my guitar rock cd and cat scratch fever is on... I have never REALLY paid close attention to the lyrics... 'Well, I make a pussy purr with the stroke of my hand'... Really? Are you shitting me? Nice lyrics!

F'ing Ouch!

You know that point on the bone of the top of your foot that sticks up the highest? It hurts like a m*ther f*cker when you drop a full 2 liter bottle of soda top first on it!

Just thought I would share my pain...

Will post another blog later... Got a LOT on my mind!

Life Changes!

So, I am making some DRASTIC life changes... I've gone back to being pescatarian (vegetarian who eats fish)... I'm cutting back on drinking... I'm working out (low intensity for the next few weeks, then P90X) and trying to quit smoking... I want to make sure I am doing everything I can to stay on this earth in ethereal form for as long as I can! Plus, I've noticed from the past few events I've photographed, squatting, tip-toeing, bending and reaching is killing me! I blew my knee out for 3 days after India Fest! Ack! It sucked! So here's to hoping I succeed! 

Technology Rocks!

So, my son's phone was stolen 3 days ago... Sprint has this wonderful Family Locator app... It has some quirks but... Via this app, I managed to lead the police to the EXACT HOUSE the phone was in... I asked to speak to the kid who stole the phone, the convo included some interesting things:


I am Kitty, the mother of the boy you stole this phone from. I want to make sure you understand something. Karma will always find you. I have a chance here to help you make a change in your life. I can send you to jail or I can give you another chance. *Sergeant: She holds your life in her hands son!* I'm willing to give you a second chance if I feel you have learned your lesson from this. Do you feel you have? *Child: Nobs head* *Sergeant: She can't hear your head rattle boy!* *Child: Yes* *Child's Mother: Yes, Ma'am!* *Child: Yes Ma'am* You need to understand something here kid, I want to put you in jail but something is telling me to give you another chance. You're mother is ashamed of you right now, she is crying because she is so disappointed in you. You only get one mother in life, don't EVER put her through this pain again. She loves you but right now, she has no pride in you at all. Do you understand that? *Child: Yes Ma'am (quietly)* *Sergeant: Speak up, act like a man and speak like one, if I can't hear you, she can't either!* (By the way, I love this sergeant at this point). I expect a full apology for stealing the phone and for the messages you sent to me when I tried to get you to turn it in. *Sergeant: You better apologize boy, you heard the lady. She can have you in jail in minutes, you NEED to apologize!* *Child: I'm sorry (tears in his eyes) I'm sorry for...* *Sergeant: You need to speak up! She can't hear you and she controls your fate right now!* *Child: I'm sorry.* For? *Child: for stealing the phone and for sending you the rude messages.* I don't feel you meant the apology but, I will accept it. You need to think about your life right now. Sitting in the back of that cop car with hand cuffs on sucks doesn't it? *Child: Yes* Child's Mother: Yes, Ma'am!* *Child: Yes Ma'am.* You think that sucks, jail is hell boy. You are small and with the attitude you seem to have, you wouldn't last long. You'd get beat up constantly. You'd be alone and have no one with you. Does that sound like fun? *Child: No* *Child's Mom: No, Ma'am!* *Child: No Ma'am. (More tears). I'm giving you a chance, don't let your mother down, don't disappoint her again and don't make me regret it. But, if my son gets touched, hassled, harassed or picked on in anyway at school by you or your friends, I WILL press charges! *Sergeant: If ANYONE messes with him, you will go to jail. We will link you to it! If one of your friends decides to retaliate and jumps him, you better defend him, not your friend! If ANYTHING happens to him, YOU go to jail!* (By the way, I REALLY love this guy now) I'm going to give you a chance but remember, karma will find you. You do bad things, it catches up to you. The next person may not be so nice! 


There was more to the convo but that was the jist of it. The mother was in tears and apologized. I told her simply that when our kids do wrong, we blame ourselves to some extent but, HE made the choice to take the phone, not her. I, in no way, blame her. I only hope he learns his lesson.

Bloody Mary Thoughts...

 So, I've had a few... Dealing with some issues... But here are my thoughts so far today...

Life doesn't ever make things TRULY easy... Life is a whore... If it was a slut, it would be easy!

But, think about your choices before you make them, think about your battles before you fight them...

My child had taken on a HUGE responsibility, he proved this morning he couldn't handle it. Now, I have to dish out punishment. I hate that! I don't like being the bad guy but, I have to. Consequences have to be learned. I just hate being the one to put them into play. I'll write more later! C-Ya!

Odd & Interesting Things You Notice...

On MySpace I have 1288 friends... I only ACTUALLY know about 300 of them...
On Facebook I have 121 friends... I know them all...


Some of my past posts on each have been very interesting!
Here are some from MySpace:


So, I know with my previous rantings you are expecting this to be some emotionally negative blog... Sorry to disappoint but this time I say love sucks because it makes it damn near impossible to write the kind of lyrics I need to write for our songs! It's like I know what I want to write and what I want to write about but when I start writing about those harsh experiences in my life, I start thinking about how lucky I am right now and how much I feel loved and am in love and it just fucks it all up! Grrrrrr! Sometimes love sucks for a different reason! This is one of those damn times! I think I need a sabbatical away from happiness just so I can write our fucking songs! WTF? How is it possible that the dark part of my heart has been folded up into an origami rainbow held by a cute little kitten? Anyone have an emotional shot-gun? I got a figurative kitten that needs it's head blown off! Never thought I would hate being happy! But, I wouldn't trade you for the world, my love!

Posted: Sunday, July 19, 2009



Ok, so here are some more thoughts that aren't really random because there is a reason for all of them...

Life is too short to waste any time caring about people who don't truly care about you... So the ones that do... Love them whole heartedly. You never know when they will be gone and the feeling of being loved and loving is better than any drug...

Tell those that you love and cherish exactly that... They may not know how you feel and you never know if you'll get another chance so do it daily...

Everyone in your life is there for a reason... Some will make you smile, some will make you cry, some will make you mad and some will tear you apart... Be greatful for all of them, your encounters with them make you who you are and some will make you see exactly how wonderful you are...

Watch those who love you closely, if you do it right, you'll start to see why they love you reflected in their eyes and you'll love yourself and them more for it...

Sometimes you have to feel pain to find joy... When you think your world is crashing down and you can't handle the pain, remember the last time you felt that way... The joy you found will be found again and each time it gets better...

Anger is a wasted emotion... All it does is tear you apart... Try laughing when someone makes you angry... It will scare the hell out of them and make you feel better...

Last but not least...

Live! Don't wait for life to happen, make it happen! Get up, do the things that make you happy, laugh at the things that make you laugh, cry at the things that make you cry... Own your feelings and you will be better for it...

Live Life! Love Life!
Kitty
Posted: Sunday, May 10, 2009


It's a choice you make... If you take the pill, you'll be happy, if you don't take it, you won't be. If you drink the bottle, you'll be happy, if you don't drink, you won't. If you kill him, you'll be happy, if you don't, you won't. Funny how it's all about choices...
Posted: Friday, July 6, 2007

A new year is upon me... I've decided to change things up this year... My only resolution is this: To care more about the things that matter and less about the things that don't...
In the coming year, you will notice a lot of differences in me... I no longer live for you or him or her or them... I live for me...
In the words of Steve-O, It's not about HIM, it's about ME!
Slap and Pickle Mother Fuckers!
Let the fun begin...
Check your sanity at the door cause it don't belong here...
-KK
Posted: Monday, January 1, 2007

First Blog...

So don't let the pic fool you... I'm a bit of a bitch but, I know inside and out I am beautiful because I do what I want, when I want, with who I want. Thing about this is: I want to live and love life! So I spend my time with my kids, as much as possible, with my amazing boyfriend, and taking amazing photos. I'm not conceited, but you can only hear how amazing you are so many times before you start to agree! It took years, I won't lie. I've done some bad things but, I've done some wonderful things! I brought 2 amazing, wonderful, intelligent, funny and quirky kids into this world. I know they will do amazing things! I've had a really hard life: slept in my own car, 'danced' to survive, fought for everything I have, dealt with abuse from the people who should love you no matter what, dealt with abuse from those I chose to share my life with. I finally, am happy. I'm still lacking things I want but, I have all I need. A boyfriend who no matter how hard I push him away, will never leave. You see, I have bi-polar disorder, borderline personality disorder and a MASSIVE anxiety disorder. I have been fighting my whole life to be 'normal'. It took years for me to realize that 'normal' doesn't exist. And that my life is my own and I own it. This is the first blog that will show you my life, my experiences and my opinions. You won't always agree but, that is the beauty in life! Differences create beauty, you just have to look at them in the right light! I hope you enjoy my blogs and if not, oh well. Stop reading. Live life, Dream big, Love what you do!